blatherings

blatherings
the shallow side

Anything for my friends

Well, we all know that isn't true, but k'vitsh has said that a little part of her dies everytime she sees I haven't updated, and that there isn't much more of her left.


So, I am off to prep for work at Dinwoodie tonight - training the new room manager.  I also still have gov't work to do, I tutor tomorrow and need to be fresh and ready for thanksgiving dinner at the Highlevel Diner. 


But this is for you, H and C.  Really.  And perhaps I will get those pictures up some day.


d.


 
11.10.04 02:53


Non Sequitar

11.10.04 10:56


what to do, what to do

Finished work freakishly early tonight - I credit it on sleeping till 2 this aft and having a nice run with the Maya-dog - and now am not certain as to what I should do... I'm not terribly tired, but I have class tomorrow.  I could clean the house a little, but S will be here for another hour and will just get in the way.  I could, I suppose, do school work, or even try to add in some photos tonight.  But if I do anything other than house work I will feel guilty cause I live in a sty.


sigh.


 


 
15.10.04 08:47


Quandry

So. I had a conversation with a friend the other day. They made a snap judgment on something, and I called them on it. We talked about it for a while, and they admitted they had responded thoughtlessly. We went on to talk about some other stuff. I thought the conversation ended well and thought nothing more of it. But now I realize they are talking behind my back and telling virtually everyone that I am patronizing and made them feel worthless, with no valid ideas.
Oddly enough, this bothers me.
There are a few things here that annoy me. First, they aren't telling the whole story. What other people hear is that I put this person down. They neglect to mention their ability to make judgments on other people's lives. Second, I had no clue I had up set them. They did not tell me directly either at the time or in the days since. Third, considering the situation, they knew I would find out about the talking behind my back.
Now, did they do this as a passive aggressive way of lashing out? Am I supposed to feel sorry that I've hurt them and come to them on bended knee begging forgiveness for my apparent belittlement of their very existence? We've known each other for a while and I don't usually respond in that manner to gossip.
Am I supposed to be the grown up here and directly discuss it, or am I allowed to play the same games?
And yes, for the record, I recognize that writing this is just as childish, and going-about-the-backish. So why am I doing it?
Partially because I can’t sleep and because I want to write more. I keep reading this news items where it says that writing about traumatic experiences helps one heal. So why would I deny this person the same healing? Because if you have a problem with what I say, let me know. Why aren’t I doing that with the person in question? Because when I did that, they went behind my back and called me names.
So someone was childish and I’m doing the same.
sigh.
I need to figure out what I want from all this.
Well, what do you think?
16.10.04 09:31


What do you want done with your body when you are finished with it?

Me, I want to be burried in a cardboard coffin underneath an apple tree on a hill, over looking a body of water. S wants to be fed to sharks. What about you?
18.10.04 20:38


So sleepy

Living the life of a grad student means, for me, a lot of sleeping in. Yet today I had to be at work by 9.30 AM. And now all I want to do is head to bed and crash for the rest of the day. I blame the recent weather change on my desire to hibernate. But I'm off to Theory class now.
19.10.04 21:28


I'll be up all night editing

Now, I recognize that I am a lazy slug - it was well past noon when I pulled my sorry carcass out of bed - but why do students leave papers till the last minute? S has two papers due tomorrow. Have they been started? Well, there are intro paragraphs for both. so he is going to bang them both out tonight, and he is even going to class. I who have nothing due tomorrow can’t even say that. Now, I realize this is nothing on Kvitsh who wrote a paper the DAY it was due, or B who wrote his entire honours thesis in 10 days. But still, why? Is this how we make being a student exciting? Does this really get our adrenaline pumping? Is this so we can blame the mark on how little time we took with it? Its not as though S can blame working full time anymore. And we’ve managed to see a movie a night for the last couple of day. Oh, I should add that everyone seems to get decent marks doing this.... But I don’t get it, even though I do it.
20.10.04 21:49


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