blatherings

blatherings
the shallow side

shudder

S has just come home from the bar, where he was celebrating his next to last day of full time employment before the school year starts.  He informed me that while at the Black Dog he ran into my ex and her husband. Apparently they spent the evening talking.  I am disturbed by this in oh so very many ways.
2.9.05 07:13


the centre of my body is where?

I was chatting with Jim about the yoga class S and I have started taking and he made some derisive snorts about reek of patchouli and mocked the way people talk about centring themselves.  I pointed out that he does the same thing before lifting heavy weights – you clear your mind, focus in on what you’re about to do and then get it done – he agreed but said what bothered him was the connecting that to something spiritual.  I replied off the cuff, but it’s stayed on my mind since then – I said that many women are discouraged from thinking positively about their bodies or at least thinking about their bodies in a positive light – it’s always dirty and smelly and means you can’t stay out as late as your brother – and that one way to work around that is to attach the positive thoughts to something spiritual, something outside of yourself that is still connected.   Essentially, that we need positive ways to connect to our bodies.  I think it is one of the things that’s easier for guys – everything is out there, dangling away where for us, not only our parts of us hidden away, but we’re taught to change the smell, the look and that we will always be too hairy and only good with airbrushing
23.9.05 06:08


Another month goes by

calf - 14
thigh - 22.5
hips - 38.5
waist - 32
chest - 29.5
bust - 38
arms - 12.5

When S and I went shopping for new school clothes I found that I am now a size 10 (from size 15 mens jeans) and that most medium tops fit, as do some small if I want to go for the “look at the size of those melons” look.

This semester I will be doing kickboxing M and W at the university, Th at panther gym. Tu I do yoga and S and I still try to run the dog when we can. I find that being physically active makes me more interested in living my life - the days that I work out seem to be the days I am more likely to pull myself away from the siren call of the computer games.
23.9.05 20:42


I'm not the only one

sometimes, I dog-ear pages in books I’m reading to remind me to come back to a page. Yesterday when I bent over a corner of a used book, I realized that the page had already had its corner bent by a previous owner. It gave me a nice feeling of connection to someone I’ll never know.
26.9.05 17:27


what a lazy slug

So, this whole thesis writing thing isn’t working out terribly well just yet. The month of September has meandered by and it feels as though I haven’t accomplished much. This feeling is likely linked closely to the fact that I haven't accomplished anything.

That isn’t true. Varsava has agreed to be my supervisor. I’ve read a book. It took a while for said book to come in, and it was a long read. But I really need to make a to-do list to start tackling all the shit that is piling up that I need to do in my everyday life, and I need to make a schedule of work for my thesis. I need to start acting like I have job.

My plan originally was to get up, work out, do some house work or fiddle-y things, do some school work, walk the dog and then either work or read in the evenings. That isn’t really happening. I get home from working out and feel as though I should eat, decide to play video games while eating, decide I’m not very hungry and then don’t get anything done. I find that my appetite is dwindling until late in the evening when I’m famished and crave sweets. Like Tim Horton’s cookies. Sorry for the plug, but damn they’re good.

So, I’m off to organize my life - I’m not going to the gym till 2, so that gives me a little over an hour with nothing to do but focus on what I need to get done.

Wish me luck.
29.9.05 19:23


Fait Accomplit - Give us your babies!

You know, that precious little thing you hide under your bed yet are still desperate to show someone…
 
The fall edition of fait accomplit is currently seeking submissions.  Any prose, poetry or pretty pictures you would like to send our way must make in by October 21st.  We’re interested in a variety of themes, languages and sizes, but only want your best. 
 
Send your submissions electronically, preferably in Word or JPEG format, to faitaccomplit@yahoo.ca.  Or, deliver them to our mailbox in 1-53 Humanities.  All submissions will be reviewed by the editorial board.
 
For more information, please email us at faitaccomplit@yahoo.ca or check us out on-line at http://www.geocities.com/faitaccomplit/
30.9.05 19:47


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