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just lovely…. if I hadn’t slept through it

In order to get the sleep I need without freaking out over it, I sleep when I’m tired and work (or slack off) when I’m awake and try not to think about the hours these things as they happen. Which meant that last night, NYE, I fell asleep at 7.30 just after dinner. I woke up in time for toasting and watching the boys play Axis and Allies. Fav line of the night - “This is my best New Year’s ever – I broke through Russia” It felt good having people here. S and I cleaned the house and cooked, had friends over, were social… I’ve wanted to start entertaining instead of silently sitting next to someone at the movies – don’t get me wrong, I haven’t been to a flick in ages and there are a few I’d like to watch – but I rather enjoyed the small party. All in all, a good night despite my mega nap. Tonight, we’re having dinner with S’s folks and then I will work on a section of my thesis. It feels like a good start to the new year. I hope yours was good as well. What did you do?
2.1.07 00:36


Sun comes up, it’s Tuesday morning

I was actually up before the sun today – not that difficult in northern Alberta, but I was up around six. Lillian’s 10 day yoga class starts today and I wasn’t sure if S wanted to do the early class or a later one, so when I realized I was wide awake, I thought I might try getting up.


I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal but I will often spend hours lying in bed not sleeping but not really awake either. I have a comfy bed with nice sheets, a dark warm room and a purring cat. I will talk myself out of getting up with the ol’ “five more minutes” nonsense that may see me in bed for another couple hours, not sleeping and not living.


By 8.30 am I was showered, breakfasted, dressed, cat was fed, dishes were soaking and laundry was swishing. Add an hour to that (because S wants to go to a later yoga) and I’ve wrtien a paragraph and a half, plus I may have convinced K'vitsh to come to the yoga class with us too.


Now if I could just get rid of this headache and find the passage I want to quote…

2.1.07 16:38


Had a psycho productive day yesterday…

…see below, add in over two pages of my thesis, yoga and a full shift with the ninjas. Of course, for the last half hour of that I was nodding off and jerking awake again.


Today, I am going to have to push myself to get anything done… Its afternoon and while I’m showered et al, I haven’t done any cleaning or writing yet…. you know, except for this…


Last night was the start of Lilli’s ten day course – I like how she can tailor every class to the people there – newbies, advanced students, pregnancies and so forth. It didn’t feel difficult while we were there, but once I got to the car I realized how shaky I felt. I had her show me the mudra she’s shown me a few times now – it helps with headaches and I find very beneficial. I’ll post it on here once I’ve written today’s thesis chunk.
3.1.07 20:11


I hate it when I’m right and not writing

I did a little, but not near as much as I would have liked – told myself I needed to re-read part of one of the books, and then the day was toast. Yoga was good and I was able to go further into one of the insane kundalini sets we’re doing. I watch her as she’s showing us how and I just can’t imagine being able to make my body do that – which is part of the problem, I know – but the repetition is helping. Work was easy and I went to bed early – I notice the yoga makes me tired.


S had gone out drinking with a couple of friends, and I was woken up to a series of phone calls after 2.30 by his buddy. Apparently, S left him at the bar when the friend started making time with some bar wench. And I know S’s thinking here, he wanted to not be in the way for his friend to get laid. But S was drunk enough that he left his jacket (which his friend took home) and walked home. So his friend was calling to find out if S made it home alive. He got in around 4, having walked home from across the river, plus stopping at Macs for coffee. And at some point he fell because when he stumbled in after 4 he was bleeding and has a series of bruises up his back. I cleaned him, warmed him up – thank godness it’s only -4 and S loves the cold – and set him down with some juice and a movie so he could rehydrate and warm up. I’ve bandaged up the elbow that’s bleeding but I’m a little worried about how bruised they both are. It looks for all the world that he fell backward and landed on his elbows. I’ll wait till he’s up and about tomorrow to ask.
4.1.07 13:09


Uncle

Lilli is holding the fifth day of her 10 day course today – usually there is a break for the weekend, but with holiday Monday and all she’s teaching today – and I just don’t wanna go.  Now, S and I have never finished this course, although I am sure we’re going back on Monday.  I don’t care for the morning classes (which this is) in part because they’re in the morning, but they are also so damn busy.  We went to the morning class yesterday because and I both had to work Friday night, and we came in a little late and literally had to lay our mats in the aisle. I have a headache from the pressure change, plus I have to work and do the last push on my first chapter.  And my quads are so sore right now, that I doubt I’d be able to do much. 

My plan for the day is to finish work this morning, stretch out, finish the latest section of my thesis, have dinner with S before he heads off to work, add in the stuff I’ve already written, go for a walk and see if I can finish it off tonight.  I’m not going to kill myself to get it done today, but I think if I keep at it in sections as I have been, I should be able to have it pretty much ready to go for the editing rounds by tomorrow night.  I’m a little further behind than I would like to be – I spent Thursday off with P and the bananafish at Canada Place so she could get her passport – and while it was fun and just the distraction I needed, it was a full day of no work.  And I’m keeping to my no thesis work on Friday rule.  I need to have one guilt-free no work day.  And it was such a guilt free day, that I watched The Covenant.  S came home just as it was finishing and asked if it was good – it wasn’t, but I really enjoyed it.  And I only once found myself thinking “I hope this actor never finds work again.”

6.1.07 16:05


Snowday!

actually, since I finished work it’s stopped snowing. But it was beautiful coming down with morning. Bella sat in front of the balcony door – which I opened so she can run in and out without having to pester me – and made that strange sound cats make, usually when there are birds they know they can’t reach. I think this is her way of saying “cursed winter I have bested you by becoming a house cat” although really, who knows?


I finished with the ninjas in the cool breeze and it was wonderful. I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and excited about my day. I’m really struggling with my thesis right now. I don’t think that what I’m doing is very deep or good and what’s the point. But I feel very up at the same time. Today I’m going to closer connect the close reading to the thesis and if I have time, add in some more theory. I want to go with S to the Library today to apply for some awards and pick up a couple of books. I’ll meet with my advisor later this week and figure stuff out. Until then, I want to keep working so there is something to salvage, as opposed to nothing there…
7.1.07 18:33


Sorry ducklings

Nothing much to say today… just thesising and heading off to yoga tonight - by bus! Isn’t that exciting! Thought not.
9.1.07 00:15


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