blatherings

blatherings
the shallow side

my gawd am I depressed

It hit me like a wave today and I've been fighting the urge to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head. It's one of those everything and nothing sort of moods. Nothing in particular is wrong; everything sucks. Dance didn't help, working out didn't help. Pop-tarts briefly made things better, but then they were gone. I'm sure I'll be better soon.
5.3.08 04:14


So much better

A good night's sleep and a long walk this morning helped a lot. I got caught up last night looking for a picture of Byron, where he's lying on a grave looking morbid and sexy. Not the one where he's on his ACTUAL deathbed. My plan tonight is to actually take a chunk out of this section that I am working on... I'm having an editing party next week, so I would like to get this third section done and started on the last section.
6.3.08 00:16


Why do I love him? Reality means little to him when he wants something.

S went out to play soccer with a mixed team last night and had a blast. We're talking about it, and the need for more female players. He says - in a very sincere voice - 'you should come out and play, I think you'd have a good time' - and I just stare at him. We used to do pick up games of soccer years and years ago where I made a great cheer leader but a horrible player - I trip over the ball, can't kick it when it's in motion, can't put the ball anywhere in particular... just all round bad. So I stare at him and after a moment I ask him just how I would enjoy myself. He starts to explain and then gives up. Apparently when he was leaving the game he was thinking of asking me and remembered then what a horrorshow I am on a court. But he asked anyway. It's actually kinda sweet - he wants to do more things together and this was rather a hail mary attempt.
7.3.08 05:43


this was gone by the time I started playing :(

This is the random harlot table from 1st edition D&D.

7.3.08 22:18


This month may turn me grey

By the time this month is over, I need to have my chapter finished, a talk ready for the conference in Calgary and get fait accomplit done. Plus work, exercise and having a life. Ha!

We laid out fait accomplit tonight, so that is almost finished - I need to take it in to the printers and meet with the woman who is taking over for me. That's pretty do-able.

The conference talk shouldn't take me too long - a lot of the info comes from what I've already written. But I have a lot of images to find, power point to put together and just get it done... I'm supposed to meet with my adviser on the 20th to do the talk for him, although I may ask him if we can delay it to the next week.

I want to hand in my chapter at the same time, and I am really hung-up on this next section. It has been weeks and I've not really done any work on it... I'm not sure how to start the section and I don't know how to handle what I want to say. I'm really not getting anywhere on it and I need to. Need to! But how?
10.3.08 07:03


Hair still red? Check. Any writing on thesis? Hells no.

We laid out fait accomplit in one day - go us! - and I broke it to the other editor that I won't be there... I'll be in Calgary at a conference and whoops! I feel kinda shitty about it because I couldn't make the last one, but I don't like the social aspect of the parties, so the shittiness evaporates pretty quickly. Plus, S offered to drive her around and be generally useful, so that helps a lot. But he often does. At any rate, all that's left is advertising the release party, looking at the proof and paying for everything.

I've also finished my conference talk. The slides look pretty hot and the talk is good and comes in at under 15 minutes. I'm doing it for my adviser this week and have already done it once for C and S. They liked it, laughed in most of the right place. C went over the moon about the Tome Cruise/Brad Pitt picture I have for Interview because she hasn't seen it and hadn't realized they were in it. She offered to repeat the giggle fit for the actual talk as well. What a pal.

So all I need to do now is finish the bloody chapter. C is almost done hers and I don't have the excuse of a bambino to explain away my laziness. I meet with Tania and it helped - mostly just getting off my chest what the problems are and having someone who knows exactly what I'm talking about. Made me fee oodles better. The editing session with C & S didn't go quite as well as there was a lot of "what the bloody hell are you talking about" and "can you be a little more specific" but better that from them then from my adviser.

So tonight's plan is to do the editing they suggested - and as this is the first time I've really touched the chapter THIS MONTH it will get me back into the swing of things.

Oh, and I finally bought p.j.s so that Catherine doesn't have to deal with my nudity while we're in Calgary. S is appalled by them- bright colours and Snoopy don't work for him, but the only others I could find were either total sex kitten or school marm.
18.3.08 04:40


Happy St. Patrick's Day

18.3.08 04:45


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